Thursday, March 28, 2013

It's all about the journey..

I have been extremely inspired and motivated this past month. I think it has to do with the rotation I am on. I am doing a osteopathic manipulation medicine rotation, and the "office" I am at has opened up my eyes to a whole new way of medicine. I use the term office in quotes, because the center I am at really doesn't feel so office-y. It more feels like a calm and serene place with a spa like quality. I mean really..when you are sick and vulnerable, don't you want to be in a more calming and soothing place instead of a place that feels stiff and unfriendly? I know I really do. I have been to some doctors offices that do feel like this, but I would say the majority are the latter.

Anyways, this rotation really has been a holistic, mind body and spirit approach to medicine. We treat people for 30-60 minutes, which allows us to really talk to them and get to know them. I find that I am more calm and acting like myself, because we have the time to talk about their health as well as there life and lifestyle, and really make a connection with someone. This is how I always thought osteopathic medical school would be like. I understand the need to learn how to treat diseases with medications, how to heal cuts and wounds, and how to perform surgeries. But I also now realize the importance of making a person feel better using your hands, your speech and your knowledge. I have seen so many patients come through the last two weeks and feel better than when they arrived. That is an amazing gift to give someone. My goal heading into the future is not to forget these skills I have learned, and really look at patients with a different perspective.

I feel like I was meant to be at this rotation this month because this whole year has been a journey of discovery. I have been constantly asked and figuring out: what kind of doctor I want to be, what I am interested in, what type of hospital I want to work in, what community setting, what types of people do I want to surround myself with. Although overwhelming, I do feel like if I just take a step back and listen to my inner voice, it's leading me down the right path. If I stop thinking and trying so hard and just BE and DO, things are going to fall in the right place for me (and for Kyle for that matter).

I have also had this type of approach to the wedding process lately. Hitting the 6 month mark really brought on some anxiety and worrisome about whether or not we would have everything finished in time, or whether or not we are on "schedule". Instead of all this thinking and trying and analyzing, I am just going to let the journey take over and just be and do. For example, the past few months I was a little worried about our caterer and food selection we would be able to have. When we finally sat down and met with them (instead of me just thinking thoughts in my head), we realized how flexible and amazing they are with helping us get exactly what we want. Now I am over the moon excited about our food we are having, and really feel like it's reflective of Kyle and me.

Overall, this entire process is not about the wedding. It is about the marriage, and the journey that we take to get there and the journey the both of us will be on for the rest of our lives. Over this wedding planning journey so far I really feel like we have learned more about each other than before. We have talked about some important things that we really didn't bring up too much previously. We are continuing to grow with each other, and have accomplished some amazing things. I am so privileged to be able to call Kyle my husband soon, and I can't wait to BE and DO with him and to continue on our journey.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Full Steam Ahead!

"Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in.
" --John Mayer

I feel like time if starting to really fly by! We are officially less than 6 months until the big day, and while we have gotten so much done, I still feel like we have so much to do. Throw in the fact that Kyle is graduating college in May and I am trying to study for another round of boards and apply to residencies, and I'd say we have a lot on our plates! The good thing about being this busy, is that we are busy with things we have worked so hard for and things that are really important to us. It is amazing to see how far the both of us has come as individuals and as a couple. It is safe to say that these next 6 months will be the most exciting times in our lives thus far! We are ready!

I think what really hit home the fact that the wedding is now close is that I picked up my wedding dress the other day! MY wedding dress. It was so much fun to put on a dress that actually was made for me and fit me pretty well and no one had tried on yet. When I think about it now, I really never bought a dress that was specifically made for me. It also makes me so nervous to have it at my house! For some reason I think that I'm not going to store it right, or that it is going to rip or something with all the weight hanging. We have called the seamstress already so that we can bring it to her because I think she knows way more about storing and keeping dress than we do. And I am very excited to finalize the dress to fit me exactly how I want and add the finishes touches to it. Oh, and my mom and I went shopping and she bought her dress too! She is going to look amazing!!

We also have booked our shuttle to and from the hotel. haha Big yellow school bus. At first I thought school buses were expensive and were hard to rent out for an event, but it is so easy and they are way cheaper than most shuttles. I seriously will use a school bus for concerts or events with friends haha.

All these little things checked off the list make me feel more relieved, excited and ready for the day. Although, I am now trying to plan out and find time to make all the DIY things I want to make to make the day unique. The list isn't too long, but it will take some planning and help from friends!

I am changing my mind about something though. I wasn't even really thinking about having a videographer, mostly because of the cost, but the more effort and time we put in to planning our wedding, the more I want a video of some of the things. I am so so excited for our pictures, and I really do think they will capture the feelings of the day, but I want a video of the ceremony and I want to see family and friends at the reception in motion. Katie had emailed me, telling me about a really talented up and coming videographer that she is going to use for her wedding, and seeing the price she was paying completely made me realize that if we really wanted a videographer, it was semi-doable. When we contacted her videographer, she was already booked for our day, but did give several other names to us. One of them seems very promising and very creative and away from the cookie cutter wedding video! Who knows, maybe we will get a videographer and I will have changed my mind once again. I just want a few days to sit on it, so I make sure I'm not just getting sucked into the hype of the commercial east coast weddings, and invest in this video for the right reasons without putting us in debt!

There is so much more coming up so hopefully I will have a lot more to post about!