Saturday, February 23, 2013

Music makes my heart sing

"And you can tell everybody, this is your song..."

Music has such a big impact on helping me express my feelings, especially to Kyle. Certain songs have such a way of just describing my heart and feelings that I just wouldn't be able to say in those words- it's like poetry. I love when I find a song I really connect with, when it almost seems as like that song was written just for me and Kyle. I guess that is why most music is about love in some way; love is what connects us all. Music also has a way of bringing me back to a certain place and time in an instant. Sometimes when I hear a song, I will have memories rushing back to me, that I didn't even know I still saved somewhere. Like when I confusingly realize I know all the lyrics to a song, and then remember it was the music my mom played in the car when I was little.

Since Kyle and I have been dating for 11 years, there are so many songs that I associate with him and certain times of our relationship. When we were first dating, Kyle was really into slow, romantic R&B music, such as Babyface. I loved this music back then because I had never listened to it and having Kyle say these songs made him think of me was really sweet and romantic. We also grew in love listening to Dashboard, like every other emotional teenager, and it was our first concert together. Our official dating song is Come What May, as we both absolutely loved Moulin Rouge and the lyrics just really hit home for us.

Since music means so much to the both of us, it has been really fun to listen to songs and figure out our wedding song and what songs we really want to have played at the reception. Our best friend's very talented little sister is going to be singing and playing guitar acoustically at our cocktail hour, and we have loved talking with her and going over songs for that. I am so glad we have so many opportunities to express ourselves through music at our wedding, because we have so many love songs that we love and that remind us of each other and our relationship.

I have spend many a night sipping on red wine and just listening to pandora stations and choosing songs that will really help express our feelings and love for each other. I am so so excited about the song I am walking down the aisle to, I have cried many times listening to it. Kyle actually put it on a cassette tape he made me back in high school (but he doesn't know what it is). We picked a wedding song that we didn't hear of until recently (from my new oldie obsession, hint hint), but really expresses our hopes and love for our future. I think it is such a classic romance song and I get butterflies picturing us dancing to as husband and wife.

We are now trying to figure out what song the bridesmaids will walk down the aisle to, what song we want at the end of the ceremony, and what song we want to announce us as husband and wife in the reception (the more upbeat and fun songs!).  It's really fun to choose all these musical details that only we will know until the day of, and we hope the songs will both excite and comfort us on our wedding day!

I will leave you with my ultimate favorite song for my Kyle:
Coldplay- Green Eyes

"I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter, now I've met you
And honey you should know, that I could never go on without you
Green eyes.."

Saturday, February 2, 2013

Wedding Nightmares

I've heard people talk about having pre-wedding nightmares. I didn't really think they would happen until right before the wedding, but I have definitely had a few this past month. It is like a freakin anxiety attack in your sleep. It has always been over something that was never done and I didn't realize it until the wedding day. Like Kyle never went to get a suit rental and the boys all showed up in sneakers, flannel shirts and jeans. (not the worst thing in the world, but doesn't really go with my gorgeous dress lol) I also dreamt that we were super late getting ready, never told the photographer to come and never rented limos. Woops. Geez, it's officially 7 months before the big day, so we still have a long ways to go, I hope these dreams don't become more frequent. The thing is, I'm not afraid or worried about anything really important (like one of us not showing up or something), just the long list of decisions that come along the way.

This past month I have been on wedding-overdrive. I was in my hometown on a rotation and usually when I'm home I have a lot more focus on wedding things. Probably because I am around a lot of my bridesmaids, mom and sister and we talk about it more often then when it's just me and Kyle at our apartment. I seriously made so many decisions and plans this month, and while I am super happy I got a lot more things done, I think I finally realized that planning a wedding and being in medical school can be a little stressful. Thank God we took a long engagement because it would have been NUTS to plan this in a short time.

So I think these wedding nightmares definitely have to do with me thinking and planning like crazy. I mean in the past month we have picked and booked our rehearsal dinner site, met with the florist and decided on flowers and centerpiece ideas, I bought some bridal accessories, sent out save the dates, finished the wedding website and we researched and booked our honeymoon. Whew! We just have a few more big planning pieces to do and then it pretty much seems like detail detail detail until the wedding. Right now though, I need to get my mind off of everything and focus on other aspects of life-so maybe these little dreams will stop. Who knew there was so much to do to plan one day of your life. If I was loaded I definitely would hire a wedding planner. Wish me luck!

Friday, February 1, 2013

Honey, We're Going to the Moon

"Where you invest your love, you invest your life." -Mumford and Sons

We have definitely done some investing lately, because we just booked our honeymoon!! I never thought I would spend that much money on a trip, but then again I've never gone away for two weeks where we are trying to spoil ourselves. I am so so excited, because your honeymoon is something you will always remember and who knows, it may be the last big trip before kids, jobs kick in, etc. So after a lot of thinking and researching we decided on our initial gut feeling and are going to Greece!!

It was a little difficult to decide where to go, because we love to travel and have so many places we want to see with our own eyes. The travel bug has bitten me again! Right away, we knew we did not want to go to the Caribbean. It is such a beautiful place, but it is also fairly close and someplace I know we will probably vacation in the future. Since we both had 2 weeks off, we knew we wanted to go somewhere a little farther away that we might not get the opportunity to visit again. We also did not want to just go to the beach, we wanted to experience culture, food, explore and have time for relaxation. Greece was just perfect!!

We are going to go to Mykonos, Santorini and end our trip in Athens. Perfect mix of beach, romance, food, culture and historical sites to see and explore. Santorini has also been on my bucket list since I made one when I was 20. (yes, I made a bucket list that young- but actually I have crossed a lot of things off!) It is basically one of most beautiful place ever, and the fact that we are going there is surreal to me. Now that we have our flights and hotel booked, all I want to do is shop for honeymoon clothes haha. Everything white, blue, turquoise and gorgeous. But for now, I will just have to bask in the fact that September is probably going to be the best month. EVER.

I can only imagine what this is like in person..