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Monday, December 31, 2012

Remembering 2012, Welcoming 2013!!!

Happy New Year!!! Is it really 2013 already?!? I am so so excited for all that 2013 brings! But before looking forward, I wanted to look back on 2012 and see all Kyle and I have accomplished and experienced. It was probably not one of my most favorite years, but it was still an adventure. Here are my top 5 moments from 2012:

#5- Tackling and Passing my Boards
Last spring was a very difficult/stressful time for me. To go from an intense day of school, only to come home and study for hours on end was really hard. I think the "hard" part was just being secluded and away from friends and family. It really was very personal and inner battle. But the results were amazing!

#4 - Racing with my Family: Rock and Roll and 5K Diabetes Race
I love doing races, especially with my family. The 5K run for Diabetes was just so much fun, from the warm up on the art museum steps to having my entire family and Kyle running. I hope we can do many more! (Also I got my PR by 4 minutes in the Rock and Roll Half in September, I hope to beat that this year!)
My #1 fan :)


Race for Diabetes Cure 5K

#3 -- My Wedding Dress Shopping Experience
It was just so surreal and fun to go out wedding dress shopping. As I posted in a previous post, I just loved getting to spend time with all the women in my life. I felt so incredibly lucky and blessed!
#2 -- June in Lewes, Delaware
Honestly, this was such a fun fun fun month. Probably the best month of the year. After working so hard over the spring, to have such a fun month on rotation (doing ob/gyn) and then having so much summer fun when I wasn't working. It was the most stress free and awesome month. I think I need to live near the beach..



 #1 -- Trip to Costa Rica with Kyle Bee
This was probably the highlight of the year. I love love traveling so much, and this was the first time Kyle and I went on a vacation just us two. Plus it was a week of relaxation on a beautiful beach with amazing food. It brought us a lot closer together, and I can't wait till our next vacation -- which will be our HONEYMOON!!! ahh (i should also probably start planning this eek)






So Happy New Year to Everyone!! Here is to a year full of health, happiness and success - in whatever way you measure success! I am welcoming 2013 with open arms, because I am becoming Kyle's wifey!!



Thursday, December 27, 2012

Save The Date!!

We finally decided on a Save The Date card and they just came in the mail! I initially had wanted to do a DIY card, and I found a really cute idea on weddingchicks.com (i love this site!). However, between time constraints and costs, it seems like the DIY would have actually been more time and more money than a magnet for the fridge. I always liked the magnet idea because it's a really easy way for people to remember your date by having it right on the refrigerator every day! I also ended up liking this idea because it gave us so many options to custom make a magnet that seemed to fit our taste and our wedding image. I love how our magnet looks slightly vintage (hint, hint.) I feel like within the next couple of months we will have a lot more of wedding decisions finalized and the save the dates just make it seem that much more real! 8 months till the big happy day! Check your mailboxes!


And a fun little thing I found...



Monday, December 17, 2012

Happy Christmas!

Even though this December has been one of the most difficult, it still is the best time of year to remember to hug your loved ones a little tighter, share your smiles with a stranger, and tell the people you love just how much they mean to you. I am so lucky to have such a wonderful family and amazing friends. Merry Christmas! (next year we will be Mr. and Mrs.)

May Your Days Be Merry And Bright



Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Love is love. And loss is loss. No matter what the age.

A lot has happened in the past few weeks. It seems since after Thanksgiving, it has become a chaotic and difficult time. After Thanksgiving I came down with something that totally wiped me out for two weeks. My doctor thought it might be mono, but luckily the test came back negative. Either way, I've been feeling lousy and lacking energy, which is tough to have at this time of the year.
         On a much much bigger level, my Grandmother had a massive stroke on December 1st, that has left her completely comatose and debilitated. Because she has never wished to be on a ventilator or have any type of feeding tube to sustain life, my family has been by her side in Hospice since then as we watch our beloved Grandmother slip away from us. This experience has been so unbelievably trying on my family, especially my father. We all knew that she would not live forever, but we also never imagined it would be this soon and happen in this type of way. My grandma to put it truthfully, is such a ball-buster. She is a Lockwood, in fact. I would have put money down that she lived to be 100. She has had so many medical problems, including three other past strokes, but she has always seemed to handle them with determination and motivation to move forward, and she would become her normal self once again. This is why it has made this time seem so unreal, because I think we really were all hoping that Grandma would wake up, and be back to her old ways of coming up with stories of having traveled everywhere in the world, going back to AC with her girlfriends (and maybe getting stuck there), calling up to talk about the Yankees, making fun of cherry pies, re-gifting random things from around her house, or surprising us at our house on a random Tuesday. My Grandma was quite the character.
      Much of her life has been filled with obstacles and tough times, and she always has come out steam rolling ahead. Somehow she raised 5 children after losing her husband at such a young age. My dad was 15 was his father passed away. She never did re-marry, but I think for some people, that one person really was the ONE, and no one else would ever really live up to that. Whatever her and my grandfather had, it must have been real and beautiful, because my dad loves my mom more than I have ever seen somebody love someone, and has more love for his family than I could ever put into words. You did good, Grandma.
    I see the same love and sense of family these last few weeks, as her sons and daughters never leave her side in the hospital. They have been taking turns spending the night and always make sure someone is with her. It has been so so difficult to sit and watch someone actively dying, and it has been a powerful emotional experience that I can never really explain. I just know that she is already so happy to have us around her and have her whole family together.

She will be with us next September too, maybe not actually on the dance floor or sitting in a seat at the ceremony, but I know her spirit will be with us that day, full of joy and happiness for her family. I love you, Grandma. I'm so grateful I've had these 27 years with you. May angels lead you in.

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"A lot of people seem to think that just because a person is older, the loss of them is more easily accepted. I, for one, would like to deeply disagree. Love is love, and loss is loss, no matter the age."